A Triumpant Return...

So... how long has it been since I last posted here? Quite a while huh? Ah well, at least I came back, even though it might only be for this one post. (Hopefully I'll make this a habit again. xD )

Anyway, a few things have happened recently that made me want to write about something. As many of you know... friendship is very important to me. And, although it's not right... I sometimes think I value my friends more than I do my family. I consider people to be my friends very quickly, and I trust too easily... which can come back up and bite me in the ass, and it has, but I'm a very slow learner on this subject. I don't know why I am this way though. I can consider someone a friend on the first day I met that person. Trusting people comes pretty easily to me as well.

However, I suffer a lot of pain thanks to all of this. The reason why is because people don't see friendship the same way I do, or at least, very few people see it that way. While I could be considering someone a friend, they might be considering me an acquaintance. This happens a lot, very frequently actually... Sometimes I do wish that people would see me as a friend as much as I see them as a friend.

That brings me to another topic: I try my very best to be as friendly as possible to someone. I will do almost anything for a friend, even if it's something that's not good for me. Something like waking up at 8 am when I went to sleep at 6 am, to go pick that person up from God knows where and take that person back home, or keep them company, etc. I may not be able to literally BE there for everyone all the time, but I do try my hardest.

Now... why do I try my hardest to please my friends? Even those that I have just met? Well... it makes me happy to know that I helped a friend. Even if the person doesn't say thank you, or doesn't feel very thankful, it just makes me happy to know that I did something for someone that I care about.

I don't know why I'm writing this here, of all places... but I guess I just wanted to express how I feel about friendship. Even if it doesn't mean anything to anyone... at least I took the time out to analyze this whole thing and write it. I hope that this will also show people who don't know me much, why I am the way I am sometimes, and why I do the things that I do and say what I say.